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Inflatable hot seat review 

Oh my word! This is prob the best way to get off for someone like me who has a slight sex addiction that she is controlling without the help from doctors as counselors. 

The hot seat is inflatable- so you just blow it up- make sure you have two double A batteries and then go to town on it. I haven’t been with a man for quite a few months now- but with this toy— I don’t think I’ll need to waste my time with losers just to get fucked. 

I can get myself off as I ride the black dick- and not have to worry whether it’s clean or has diseases. I don’t even have to make small talk or listen to it rant about their jobs and the military which I don’t care about. 

I’ve been patiently waiting for this for the past week and for it this morning! Hooked it up grabbed some lube and went to town on it. It’s a bit loud though so if your trying to be discreet—- blast some music. It vibrates as it’s inside your pussy and it makes for an extra orgasm. I fingered my pussy as it vibrated inside me and it was incredible. I came within a few minutes. I honestly feel my pussy still vibrating, and pulsating as if in still riding the attached dildo. 

I need a cigarette now and feel like I can just relax and maybe take a nice nap. I’m so glad I made this purchase and know that my weekends when I’m alone and longing for some orgasms—- I’ll use this instead of a guy who I can’t stand. 

They have these hot seats on the website Groupon and it was discounted- I paid $31 for an instant orgasm. Ladies or even guys check this out. 


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Update- Celibacy No More

so ive been celibate the last three months and was so proud of my streak. i done went and fucked it up by first giving Don head in the back of his car- but i figured its not sex so I was still considered celibate. 

then about a week and a half later i met up with Bill Yum after going ghost on him for months- like every other guy i left alone to figure me and my addiction out.
so apparently he moved to a new house and lives with two other roomates who are guys- which is cool. he says he works all the time and hasnt had time for females and was wondering what happened with me. told him i was fighting some demons and trying to get right with myself, so went ghost. 

he texted me the one day or maybe i texted him cause i was getting the itch i get where i needed some dick- so he invited me up his place- whih is two hours away- i agreed and said id come up to spend the night.
felt good to see his face, the past was behind us with the whole cheating thing i forgave him, he apologized. 

i told him how i felt and we made up. so here we are talking catching up and watching movies- when for the first time in a long while i didnt wanna just jump his bones.

 i actually enjoyed our conversation and our flirting. i missed my hands inside his. it felt great to be there with him. so we watched some movies, then all of a sudden he started to finger me on the couch. oh my lawd, it felt incredible! then he pulled off my shorts and stuck his massive black cock in my wet pussy. i screamed cause that was the first time in three months i had a dick in me. i moaned and moaned as he thrust into me. i was going wild as he flipped me over and i flipped back. we kissed and he kissed my body all over. i love the way he feels on top of me. echoes of my screams go throughout the house as i start to cream on his black couch that he shares with his roomates. he thrusts one last thrust and my whole body is throbbing- and i cum everywhere. we finished at the same time.
we continue to watch the movies and eat and just have a couple drinks. then one of his roomates come in from out partying and hes drunk. he falls asleep on the recliner next to us as we continue to watch the movie. by this time im getting sleepy and wanna just go lay in his bed. so i start rubbing on his cock right on the couch next to his roomate. trying to hint to him- im ready to go another round. then i tell him im going downstairs to lay in bed.
i head downstairs and put on my lingerie that i brought to look sexy for him. its a really cute see through pink set i wore in a recent boudoir photo shoot i did. i felt so sexy in it and couldnt wait for him to see me in it.
so i adjust myself and turn on some music. he peeks his head in and sees me wearing it- and says i look sexy, as he grabs my butt. definetly the reaction i wanted from him.
he tells me he will be back in. so i make myself comfortable on his bed. his bed was very soft. fighting sleep, so we could get one or two more rounds in before we actually have to sleep.
he comes in and we talk, then i start to go down on him. placing my wet warm mouth on his dick- and i hear him moan in pleasure.
then i hop on top and start riding him, thrusting back and forth and going wild since its been a while since i fucked a guy. he grips me up and pulls my hair, then spanks me. then i pull out my vibrator which he uses on me as hes fingering me- omg it felt so good. he was telling me to be quiet but i couldnt help myself. im sure his roomates heard everything… but honestly it turned me on more knowing they could hear. We decided we are gonna do another long distance thing- so gonna see where it goes. I will see his this weekend when he’s in town- 

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Celibate

So I guess my blog should no longer be sierras sexcapades since I’ve decided to go down the path of celibacy. I had to stop this addiction which would’ve had me on the path of self destruction. And I’m doing a great job. I feel like I’m really learning more about myself and growing a lot on this journey of self control. I haven’t gone to sex addiction meetings yet but am debating if I should go sit in on one or not just for the extra support. I am proud of myself and decided it’s best for Don to stay out of my life completely since he doesn’t do anything positive in my life- he wouldn’t be a positive person to have around and my contact with him would only make the celibacy vow I’ve decided to take fall through. 

So I feel invincible now that I gained some confidence and realized that I am worth more. I don’t have to open my legs up and just hook up with guys to satisfy me. I am actually at a point where I’m okay sitting in the house and using my new vibrators I just bought. 

I wanna save myself for someone worth it. Who respects me and understands who I am and what I may be struggling with but still accepts me the way I am. 

I will continue on this path and see what happens. I’m at the point in my recovery where I know I can do it and I will do it- for me 

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Vibrators

So I just ordered a ton of sex toys for myself so I can get myself nice and wet since I haven’t had a guy to help me out in that department. 

If I finally decide to have sex 

I’m going to be so tight down there since I haven’t been fucking anyone

So the next time I am with a man it might actually feel different

Maybe I should every so often take a break from guys and sex so I can experience what it feels like to not have a dick in between my legs and keep my pussy tighter.

I’m hoping these vibrators do their job and satisfy me

I know it isn’t a guy and a real life dick but I need to curb my appetite and I feel like this is one way I could do it.

Monster is coming to town in two weeks and I think I’m going to plan to meet up with him.

I miss him in my life. 

I know he’s probably wrong for me on so many levels

But I’m usually attracted to the guys who are in fact wrong for me. 

Update on brothers friend Bob… so apparently he did go to rehab.. so his facebook post states and his friends are concerned… but he’s back to his old ways… in the bar drinking away his sorrows or whatever he drinks away for. Guess he didn’t care about me like I did for him. Guess I was just someone for him to do at the time- cause he did not text, call or message me through social media to let me know he’s back home and done with rehab. Oh well guys will be guys. And he is a douchebag because I would’ve made an awesome girlfriend to him. Hey we win some, we lose some. On to the next is what I always say! 
So I’ve been in contact with monster for the past month and he’s gonna be getting a hotel room when he comes to visit. 

He’s close with one of my older brothers and is going to my brothers for a party- so I might just go to my brothers that day looking irresistible. I plan to do some dirty things with him in my brothers bathroom, in monsters car, and hopefully all night in the hotel room. 

Glad I’m saving my pussy for someone I actually care and have feelings for- not just for a random hookup. 

Making some progress and now I know how to control myself, and I know I didn’t die going these last two-three months without actual penetration- so I will be alright. 

I am growing and improving with each day. Each day I am getting stronger and stronger in this fight.

Addiction will not overcome me.

I will not fall

I am stronger then I think 

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Still horny 

So I lay here in bed and recall my shenanigans over the weekend and think to myself damn I am still horny as fuck. Although I had my pussy eaten like no tomorrow- which rarely happens when I mess with black guys- (yea Friday guy was a white guy) I still feel horny as hell. 

Oral is fine and all and great cause I never get it- black guys don’t do that for some reason- I will never know why- but I am fucking horny and feel so aroused like I really wish I had a dude to just call up and ask to come over. All my men are too many miles away and I can’t even just go and see them. This long distance shit is for the birds. The army lifestyle is for the birds too. 

Really contemplating banging the 22 year old and his new friend that I just got introduced to.

It’s going against my initial rule that 22 is way too young for me- but really what is age? 

If it’s only sex- Friday guy was shockingly the oldest guy I’ve been with ever and he was past my rule of too old- so why should I not break my top young rule?

 They are adult age- they are just about ten years younger then me- 

You with think 22 would have more stamina

More energy

Be able to go many more rounds 

Damn I’m talking myself into it just getting aroused think about the 22 year old guys I want as my next conquests 

Not sure what my next move is…. but will keep my loyal followers updated. 

First I need to lay the ground work- texting and sexting then I’ll get my way… get their dicks in my mouth and pussy. 

Btw both of these 22 year olds are army which makes it even sexier 

Since I have a thing for military guys 

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Pandora’s Box

So I forgot to tell you guys about Friday guys friends that I met. They are big freaks! And it’s kinda funny felt like fate that I was supposed to meet them! 

So we’re chatting it up and the beers and shots we’re going down way to smooth

By the third shot I’m blabbing about sex and how I like to explore and all this other nonsense the sober me wouldn’t say as loudly to people I just met like an hour before

So the girlfriend of Fridays friend marko starts telling me about her submissive lifestyle and how she got her bf marko into it

She told me about different websites to search for doms and how to do this and do that

I was intrigued

And a bit aroused

Very curious

She seemed like a cool chick 

Like she’d be a lot of fun to hang out with again

Then when she left to use the bathroom marko pulls out his phone filled with all these photos of her ass and the bruises and marks on it

He’s so happy to show them off

And I go through and see what she wears 

Collars 

And chains

And really sexy clothing

And there’s all these erotica type photos in his phone

I’m like shocked but aroused and excited for them that you’d never have no idea looking at them they’d be like that

Thy seemed like normal people 

But they were freaks and I liked that they were

Friday guy was getting all red in the face and he looked uncomfortable about his friend showing me the photos

I told him it’s okay

I’m interested and want to learn more

So I exchanged numbers with the girl and I think I’m going to text her one day and ask her about some tips on how to be a submissive

And how to explore this side of me that I am drawn to

They mentioned sex clubs and going there 

And this turned me on

Just wish I had a guy to take me there

I could never go there with Friday guy 

And not even sure Tyrone would be up for that

Wondering if I’m opening up Pandora’s box or some side of me that shouldn’t be opened by being friends with this woman and maybe even joining in on trips to clubs with her

I know that night she was nonstop texting me to go join her and her bf to use their sex swing 

And I know if her bf was a little cuter I would’ve joined but I had no attraction to him whatsoever so that kept me from hanging out with them after the bar. 

So just wondering and asking you- my readers what you think- do you think I should open up this door of new explorations or keep the door closed for whatever reason it’s been closed this entire time for. 

Comment your thoughts please. 

Oh and as for the sex addiction counseling I’m still waiting on a call back- 

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New Fuck Buddy to play with

So planning to meet a possible new fuck buddy 

He claims he likes to be dominant and he’s into doing freaky things 

Now to test him out and see what he’s like

Needed some more dudes in my life

Staying dry as fuck really ain’t cool

Dating ain’t for me right now 

So I wanna explore what is out there 

Maybe having new guys added to my occasional fucks will teach me new ways of enjoying sex 

And my body 

So hoping Saturday gets here quickly cause I want to have this new guys dick in my mouth

Might be a possible three way also

With two younger guys…. 

I was told to bring my sex toys and we will use them 

He also wants to fuck me in the ass

Which I’m sorta opposed to in a way but if we fuck around for a while anal will be worth it

For some reason anal to me is sacred not every guy can poke me there

Which should probably be the way with my pussy but oh well 

So going to get ass fucked and pussy fucked hopefully at the same time— 

Be a first for me-

The other three ways consisted of me being face fucked And pounded in my pussy

Kinda excited about the idea of double penetration in that way as if it’s a porno 

Really hot to think about

Pussy is pulsating a bit just imagining what will happen… 

Probably opening up Pandora’s box adding these other guys to the mix and adding to the extreme needs and wants of my addiction but I guess I gotta get it out the way before I get help 

And it’s gone forever 

I will update you guys on what happens