So guess all those feelings i had for him were daydreams-
I don’t know why I tried with him again
He’s toxic for me and not the one for me
And doesn’t deserve to be with the new me I have grown and become after 5 years away from him!
We ended things- we’ll I ended things with him-
Then saw the true psycho he is
As he went through five different stages within twenty minutes
I love you please stay with me, I need you so I won’t kill myself, I can’t live without you.
Please don’t ruin our family- give me more time, I hate you- I’m better off without you.
I’m taking you to court to get more custody.
This dude literally went through whatever he could to try and make me stay. If it was 5 years ago- I would’ve stayed- but I’ve seriously grown and matured and got stronger- I see through his bull shit now. He never wanted me- he just wanted me to be there living in the same house taking care if our child- doing everything- working, cleaning- taking care of things.
We barely had sex- we had sex a few really good times in the start of our thing and that’s it- I never had that good good sex.
Never had that dripping wet- sweaty waterfall type sex.
We got to the point where we’d argue and it would be exhausting with his mood swings. Like what type of guy will you be today? Always on guard- walking on egg shells- never would be my home- our home together as a family.
He was trying to take me away from my family again- when I am close to my family. Trying to isolate me- to only batter me emotionally- put me down constantly- fatten me up so I won’t leave.
I’m glad I saw through the toxic relationship before it got serious.he wanted another child- I wanted to finish my degree like I plan to. He wanted to stop working and retire although he cannot- and I wasn’t about to work like a slave to pay his way in life.
I left him and said my goodbyes- which is now leading to more hell raised by him- more court dates, more custody issues- guess co-parenting is impossible with him. Nothing is possible with him. Time to move forward and continue to do me!
I’m back on the market- time to explore my options
whether it be with a new guy with just hookups and flings or finding the one who is meant for me- on to my continued journey. All I know is I’m horny as fuck- divorced and ready to explore. Stay updated and continue to read—– more to come!!!!