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Weekend meetup

So it’s getting close to that time again-

Bill yum will be in town next weekend and I’m so excited about it

I haven’t had sex in a while and have been so horny

I text him last night to see if he’s getting a hotel when he comes and he said most likely

Not sure if he will or not but either way I’m gonna fuCk him

Whether it’s in the back of his car or just fucking on the side of a dark back road 

I need to fill my want and need 

Tank isn’t doing that for me since we are waiting to have sex

Which is cool but a girl needs a little more than just dry humping and sucking a dick

So I plan on Saturday to be wild as always when I’m with Bill yum

His huge black dick will penetrate my tight pussy and feed this need I’ve had for quite some time 

It might seem as though I am just using him for sex— but am I wrong? 

Men do it all the time- why can’t women. 

Fuck it I’m gonna do what I want anyway no matter what people say or think even if they think it’s wrong.

Tank update:

So I’m still talking/texting Tank since the last time we went out on a date and he supposedly would start coming up to see me more- now to see if he’s truthful about that And actually comes. 

I just feel like sometimes guys are all talk- 

I won’t believe him until I actually see it happen

I’m feeling a bit strange about Tank and thinking maybe he’s not that experienced sexually since he doesn’t wanna have sex with me yet. His kissing was awkward and it was as if he pushing his whole mouth on my mouth and the tongue doesn’t move in sync with mine- I cannot explain it but he’s a terrible kisser and I feel like I’m suffocating when he kisses me- doesn’t give me those feels like other guys do when we kiss so I’m wondering if I’m honestly attracted to him or not and wondering if I’m wasting my time. I had to tell him on Saturday to kiss a certain way not sure if I crushed his male ego but I don’t give a fuck I felt like I couldn’t breathe. Tank is the kind of guy who seems like he hasn’t been with a woman in a long time which I guess is a good thing but there’s no thrill there there’s no freakiness and experimentation like I want. 

When talking about sexual fantasies- I mention a threesone with a guy and girl and his eyes bulged out of his head- shocked. 

I mention how I might be into whips and choking and he looked so scared. Not sure if we have the same sexual chemistry and not sure how long this will last because of it- although I am trying hard to get to know him and with time maybe he would reveal a freaky side to him. He did however say he likes to be dominated by a woman and it turns him on. But I like to switch it up I wanna be dominated but also dominate so wondering if he could do that for me. He also seems to really have a foot fetish and shower fetish. Every time I see him he mentions he wants to wash my body down and massage my feet- I’m like umm okay sure you can- but I haven’t allowed him to do it yet cause I told him I can’t just shower with him without wanting to fuck him right after- I said it’s too much of a tease to do that. So basically all we do right now is cuddle, dry hump, I suck his dick and I finger myself till I fall asleep. Guess I’ll see how much longer this goes on. 

Tank also said he’ll eat pussy when we get more intimate 

Like how much more intimate do we need to get? 

I suck your dick but you can’t return the favor? 

This kinda irritates me- so not sure where this thing with Tank will go. The guys I choose are selfish as fuck when it comes to eating pussy.

I’m about to get me a female just so my pussy gets licked and some more attention 

Update on Don:

So I text him a dirty meme the other day cause it reminded me of him and the way he lays down the pipe 

He responds and says he wants to meet up

I’m tempted and might just meet with him this Sunday so I can get some action before next weekend 

It feels like forever that I had sex

Since all my dudes are long distance 

So not sure what will happen Sunday but I’ll deff keep my followers posted

Tyrone Update:

Tyrone and I are supposed to hang out sometime this week- but not 100% sure about that since he’s been so busy. 

Solo:

Pleasuring myself is the only way these days.

I’ve been fingering myself a lot these days and watching a lot of pornhub the blacked edition- which I love and it seems to be satisfying me. 

Just don’t know how much longer it will satisfy me until I erupt and want to just fuck everything and anything. 

Stay tuned for more sex stories that I am sure are on their way since I’ve been horny as fuck 

The pussy controls me and I think I’ll let it 

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Normalcy 

So I decided I will delete the old numbers of the guys in my life that have no real substance or positive impact on my life…. that’s including Don and even Monster who I rarely see anyway. 

I will miss the Monster cock that he provided with his sexy smile and as for Don I’ll miss the conversation but that’s about it. 

Debating about Tyrone although I feel like Tyrone would be an occasional sex partner as he had been those two times in my past. The sex was incredible with him but he taught me some things About myself that I didn’t even know and I thank him for that. I guess with each new guy you learn something about them/and guys in general as well as learning something about yourself.

I deserve to be happy with one guy and one guy only and on this path of recovery I think it would be easier to achieving a sense of normalcy if I am to either stay to myself and try the life of celibacy or at least stay true to one guy. 
So I’m hoping things do well with the hot army vet and I can just be with him and he could satisfy my needs and wants especially in that department- my sexual needs. 
Sitting around with friends today we share stories of sex and what we thought were naughty and I think to myself how lucky people are to have a special someone in their lives and as much as I enjoy my singledom and being able to fuck him or him- 
I still feel a sense of loss like something or someone is missing from my life
This indecisiveness is crippling to me as to whether I want to be alone or be with another person and just let my walls come down to be willing to be with them
I want to jump all in with a guy and maybe it will be the hot army vet which I found out his name finally Which is Enrique. 

Or maybe just at least give him a chance and see where it goes. 

He could definitely be someone different than the usual jerks I have dealt with in the past.

Who are out for one thing and one thing only 

And he could make me want to change and just want to be with him and get to know him

I wanna take this step and see how things pan out

So I am planning an official counseling session Monday so that’ll be the start of my recovery and I’m hoping I can get some answers as to why I feel this need to control guys- use them before they use me- which seems to be my logo and mentality when messing with these guys who aren’t even dating worthy. 

It’s going to be hard but i need to do this for me and for a chance to have real love ❤️ 

So it’s going to be either celibacy or control of this disorder and I will commit myself to only one person who means more to me than anyone. I will commit to myself and better who I am so I can be open to love and not always feel these thoughts of lustfulness and Sex. 

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2 in one night- makes everything right. 

So thinking back to my early days in the military, I remember I had just left home for first time ever and it was the first time in 6 years I had been away from my steady boyfriend Leon. 

So I go away and I am training in Fort Jackson, SC and I get to the point where being around all these guys had me to the point where I just wanted to fuck them all. It wasn’t even like the guys were that attractive- because some of them weren’t- but it was due to the fact I hadn’t had sex in two months when I used to have it every other day and sometimes everyday, numerous times a day. So there I am, watching the Drill Sgt bending over in front of me, he had a nice ass, very toned and tight, he took really good care of himself. Then he’d get down and show us how to do push ups, I loved watching his muscles bulge as his arms pushed up and down. He had me to the point my pussy was pulsating. I needed dick and I need it fast. 

I remember having to finger myself often during basic training, and some times actually fingering myself on my bunk in a room full of about 16 other women. I didn’t care, I needed the release, I was so horny, probably the horniest I’ve ever been in my life. 

I noticed a pattern, if I didn’t get sex everyday or at least a few times a month- then I’d go insane. My pussy would throb and everything and anyone would make me very aroused. Maybe the military was the cause of my addiction, or at least factored into the reason behind it. 

Well anyway, so everyday I’m out there training and getting aroused And needing to rush back to the barracks to take care of myself. 

Then I move on to AIT( Advanced Individual Training- for all you civilians. I go there and I have a crush on this Puerto Rican guy named Hernandez. We sorta date and are considered AIT bf/gf, even though we both had people at home waiting for us. So we start out just going to the bowling alley for our dates and hanging out, and one day we get a pass to go off base. I decide yea here’s my chance to be alone with him. So I get a hotel room for the night. My plan was for me and my friend to get rooms side by side so we can hang out with our army bfs there, but I ended up being there myself. 

There was a group of us going out, it was me and Johnson (female) and about  7 males including our crushes. 

We decided we’re gonna stop and get some liquor and just chill for a bit then take a cab to the other hotels- there were many hotel parties that night. 

So I drink and drink some more, and I get to the point where I’m pretty fucked up. I remember staggering as I walked and flirting heavily with my crush all night. 

I remember being in the cab to go to a hotel party and making out with Hernandez in the back of the cab while one of our buddies recorded it. I was a hot mess. So we get to the other hotel, and I somehow lose my crush as I staggered through the hallways looking for anyone that I recognized. 

At one point I get taken by the hand and led into one of the hotel rooms. I’m like wtf what’s going on here. The guy leads me in the room and he sits on the bed. I was like wait this ain’t happening. I wasn’t about to have Sex with this guy- he was my platoon leader and I really wasn’t into him like that. I saw another guy that I was attracted to in the hallway, and I would’ve totally fucked him but he wasn’t  interested. 

Maybe he saw how obliterated I was and knew better to mess with me. I don’t know but I was glad I got out of that situation quickly. But soon after I left that situation, I remember walking into another hotel room that I knew a few people at and saw this really fine black guy. I didn’t find out his name until after our encounter but oooh boy. So we chat it up, and we end up going into the bathroom. We start tongue kissing and he pulls off my shirt, starts licking my tits and sucking on them as he groped and fondled me all over. Omg I can’t believe what I’m about to do. I barely know this guy. I didn’t even know his name. I know I’ve seen him around but didn’t know him, know him. So he continues licking and sucking on my tits and then I drop to my knees, pull out his massive cock and go to town on it. This was only the second guy I’ve ever did these types of things with. I felt dirty but in a sexy kind of way. I felt like a bad girl, a naughty girl. I sucked and nibbled and licked him all over, I gagged and kept on sucking. Then he pulled down my pants and slipped his hard dick in me doggystyle. I let out a loud moan that I’m sure everyone in the room heard and he started banging me harder and harder over the tub. Then on the sink and on the toilet. Bodies slapping, slippery wet, screams and pleasure was all you could hear. Everyone definitely heard me. We are in the bathroom for like 30 mins fucking and it was so good, I wish there was a second time but after that it was over. He zipped up I got dressed and we parted ways. He left the bathroom first then I did. Once I left out, the stares started and the snickering. Oh well I just got fucked in a bathroom- no big deal. Haters will always hate. So just as I’m walking out the hotel room, I bump into my crush. Oh shit, I hope he doesn’t find out I just banged some random guy in that room before meeting up with him. Nothing was said and we planned as a group to head to a strip club.

 I didn’t care plus I kinda have a thing for hot girls so I said let’s go. I was already horny as fuck since I just had my pussy tore up by some long, thick black dick, so let me see some naked bitches to push me over my edge and be ready to fuck my crush. So we watch the girls dance and they are showing me a lot of attention. These bitches are sexy and like nothing I’ve seen before. They were on the ceiling twirling and shit. I was soaked by the time I left to get back in the cab with the guys. So we all head back to the room. The other guys were also drunk and had nowhere to sleep so I said they could stay in my room- sleep on the floor or something, which they did. 

There were a few guys, one at the door, on the foot of the bed, on the right and left side of the bed. And a guy sleeping on the chair in the room. As for me , I had the bed and my crush came up in the bed with me. That was a huge mistake. We started fooling around, making out, he starts groping and fondling, and then he goes down on me.

 I couldn’t mention I just fucked someone so I let him go down. It was amazing head, and I moaned and tried to be quiet as he licked me so good. I kinda forgot we had people in the room, and a part of me actually enjoyed the fact that they were there to hear. It turned me on more. So he’s licking away, and then he puts on a condom and sticks it in. 

Eh it wasn’t the best sex I’ve had, and his cock was a lot smaller then the last guy I wAs just with about an hour ago, but it was subpar- and hey at least I got some great head out of the deal.

 So we’re fucking for what seems like all night- and as I’m riding him in the bed- I see one of the guys get up and leave the room to go outside- I guess he had enough of listening to us fuck each other. We both cum and we pass out. 

The next morning i have a bad headache and I am spinning. We get a call that we are due back at the base and we need to hurry up. So I look around for my clothes, which apparently were thrown around on the floor where the guys were sleeping. I had to pull my bra off of a guy who lay on his belly on the floor and my crush helped me get the rest of my clothes.

Omg I can’t believe I fucked with all these people in the room, and I can’t believe I fucked two guys in one night.

 I was embarrassed and felt funny. My crush later found out at the barracks I had fucked that dude in the bathroom before fucking him and he was pissed at me.

 He shouldn’t of been though since we both were cheating on our significant others anyway, we weren’t serious and weren’t going to be. 

Or maybe he’s pissed cause he ate my pussy that an hour or so before had a huge black dick in it. I don’t know and I will never understand it but I know that, that night is one I would never forget. 

That was the beginning point where I knew their were other dicks out there besides my bf of 6 years- and I was ready to explore them.

 I wanted to explore all shapes and sizes, and I have had the pleasure of conquering many dicks that brought me pleasure and some that had me regretting and some I had to fake orgasms to boost the guys ego- because hey, I’m just that nice. 

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Clit kisser

So I was horny as fuck this morning and remembered I just bought a new sex toy that I haven’t tried out yet. 

So I pulled it out the package washed it out batteries in. And set the speed and vibration to high and fast- which I seem to love. 

The clit kisser is supposed to be used right on your clit- but I had it going in my wet pussy-

It felt amazing

It was vibrating and penetrating me which had me so aroused

I fingered my clit as it was vibrating inside me. It was also sending a vibration down to my asshole which made me even wetter. The clit kisser was a purchase I’m glad I made. 

I kinda got to a point where I didn’t want to use toys- I only want real life dick in my life- but when there are times when I can’t just have Tyrone or Monster come and break me off- I can substitute for the pleasure they would give me with this vibrating toy.

So I had it set high and it had me soaked to the bone. I moaned aloud and was pulsating- my pussy was throbbing. I continued fingering my clit as it added to the arousal I was getting from digging the toy deeper inside my pussy. I got to the point where I orgasmed and was done.

 I was light headed- and felt dizzy- the big O was incredible. I wouldn’t have believed that s sex toy could have gotten me to the point where I felt like I was high in the clouds and like I just got fucked. 

The clit kisser will now be my very best friend and I will be using it often when my friends can’t come and see me to help me out.