I’ve decided to let Don back into my life…..
I remembered all the good things that he helped me do and encouraged me to do.
The main reason I let him back in was due to something my friend Tyrone was saying about the guys I like and telling me about how people are set in your life for certain reasons. He also said be with someone who wants to better you and wants you to better you.
I always had a connection with Don since the first day we started to talk on Facebook and through the phone.
Then we had an even bigger connection when we met for the first time in person.
When we hung out tonight- all these warm fuzzy feelings came back to me-I think I may have loved him at one point- and it feels like those feelings were coming back- maybe they never left.
I missed looking at his mysterious brown eyes and looking at his sexy lips as he talked to me. I really missed our conversations.
We haven’t seen each other in three months and when we met up- we got right into our conversation and chatted for a while.
I so wanted to kiss him.
And my heart felt full when in his presence
It’s a crazy kind of feeling I have for him and when I am around him
I’m wondering if I’m falling all over again or if I fell for him before but always pushed away the feelings of it cause I was scared and made up every excuse to avoid being with him- like I always do.
So we talked about going the relationship route in 2017- and I said it sounds great! I jokingly said I have to work on me this final week and learn to just trust and not worry so much.
I also thought when in relationships you jump all in- but he said to go slow and go into it gradually.
I really wanna do this and I wanna have him in my life.
I know I have him in my life now but on a friend level- but I think I’m ready to have him on the bf level. I guess time will tell and I’ll see what my next move is.
Oh I told him about my sex addiction tonight and how I’m working on me and being celibate for a while until the guy I’m with is worthy of my good good. He said he respects it and won’t pressure me. He said whenever I’m ready for sex, is when it will happen. He also learned that I love being spanked and choked in the bedroom and I’m surprised he wasn’t to taken back by any of it. He actually told me he thought I had an addiction so he sorta already knew.
I’m ready to find and hold on to love in 2017- it’s my time to be happy.