So I met Tim on a dating site-
Hey don’t judge me
It was my first time exploring dating sites and figured what the hell let me try it out
So we started talking through the site and he seemed half decent so we planned a date to meet
I chose a local restaurant bar that was in my neighborhood- so I’d be closer to home if he was a wacko
We met at the place and we hugged at our first meeting
We had talked on the phone previously and that helped break the ice a bit
So when we met it wasn’t as awakward
It was like meeting a friend
We talked a lot
I had some food
Had a few drinks
Then we decided to go to the park and feed the ducks
It was nice
A date where I didn’t put out on the first time together
I was so proud of myself
Or maybe I didn’t put out because he really wasn’t the ideal guy or usual guy I went after
He was a tall somewhat stocky white guy
First white guy in a long time for me
So we went on a date and kept texting
He came from Jersey to visit me often and we went on quite a few dates after that
We ended up going on a road trip to Mount Joy, PA and just chilled at a B&B there.
This was the first time we were able to hang out and possibly hook up outside of a car setting which we had previously been doing after our dinner dates
So I figured it has been about 2 months I was ready to get some penetration in my life…
I was totally wrong about that.
So we show up to the B&B and it’s awkward as hell
It’s inside a woman’s home and there were other couples there
Even a couple with their two boys
How the fuck will I fuck in this house?
I’m too loud and everyone in this house will hear me- which would be so embarrassing.
So i tried to make some moves on Tim- but he kept swatting me away and didn’t want to fuck
Really dude it was two months we were together that’s enough time I thought to get down
I keep attempting to get him aroused and he barely got up
Wtf was I off my game or something cause usually guys get hard and very aroused when I start playing with them
I even started sucking his average white man size cock to help persuade him that I was ready to go…… and nothing
By this point im irritated and pissed off
So I go in the bathroom to just cool off plus I decided I was going to take a bath in the huge whirlpool tub
In the tub I fingered the shit out of myself to get me off since apparently this dude couldn’t and wouldn’t get me off
I remember I packed a naughty 2 piece lingerie set to help spice it up
I don’t usually do the lingerie thing but for him I bought it cause I wanted to get fucked
So I put it on and it looked great on me
There’s no way he could turn me down now
So I walk out the bathroom and he sees me he gets aroused
but he still doesn’t want to fuck
He just goes down on me and licks my pussy
I sorta get off cause the head was pretty good and I figured that’s the only thing I’m getting so I better enjoy that shit
He’s down there for like 20 mins going in
So it helped satisfy my need of some type of penetration
The following times we go to hotels to just chill he’s the same way
He doesn’t want to have sex
He just wants to make out and go down on me or do 69
I need penetration!
We were at the hotel and I did the same thing
I straddled him and he rose but he said he wasn’t ready to have sex yet
Maybe I’m too agressive or maybe he was a bit taken back because I did say he was the first white guy I really had so maybe he felt like he couldn’t satisfy me like black guys could but I didn’t care I just wanted him to try.,,,, but nope
I got head, some fingering which I could’ve done myself and some kissing which was subpar
He even had the audacity to actually lift me off of him when I tried to straddle him
By this last time I was at the point where I knew it was the end
It was weird he didn’t want to have sex
He also had some crazy fantasies he wanted to do with me which I wasn’t down for
He mentioned that it would turn him on if I peed on him
Wtf! Dude that’s sick!
He also liked me to belittle him,
call him names and slap him around.
I was intrigued and actually did a little of those things besides the peeing, but it didn’t last.
I wanted him to throw me on the bed and ravage me like a beast but he wanted to be the one who was ravaged-
so we didn’t have the same sexual chemistry or desires
I ended up breaking it off with him and telling him to have a good life
I wasn’t the girl for him.